Happy Girl

I just realized that I accidentally wrote about Joe going on deployment twice. OOPS! sorry guys.

Well, the past two days have been pretty busy for me. Joe will be home a week from thursday, so I've been trying to get everything done that will be due while he's home so I wont have to worry about them while he's here. I've been working on homework and projects that aren't even due for two weeks haha. It sucks right now, but I know I'll be glad when he's home and I don't have anything to keep me away from him.

EXCEPT that I have two tests while he's home. GREAAATTT. That means I'm gonna have to leave him a lot to go to tutoring and stuff. That wouldn't be so bad if he lived in college station, cause then I can just come right back, but he lives an hour and a half away, so it'll be a lot of driving back and forth.

But as long as I get everything but the tests out of the way I should still be able to spend a lot of time with him. I just hate knowing that he's so close and I'm not with him :( boo. But at least he's coming home. Looking at the bright side. And after he leaves it'll only be another 25 days till I see him again. Happy Girl.

Oh yeah, so I've been writing this paper for my comp class about these pro-anorexia websites. They like tell each other how to like throw up more effectively, or stuff to do to stop from being hungry. It's really weird and kinda scary, but since I have to have like 10 hyperlinks in my blog, here's a few websites for you to check out!

Oh and I think I found the apartment I'm gonna live in next year, so here's a link to that too if you wanna see!

So you guys are probably WAY tired of hearing about Joe, but considering he's one of the most important things in my life, he's one of the few things I think about haha. Well anyway, I found out yesterday that he was picked to go on a deployment for a month and a half this summer. I'm trying to be excited for him because it's a really big deal that he was chosen for it, but last time I checked, theres not much cell service in the middle of the ocean. I can go a month and a half without seeing him, I've done that plenty of times, but i've rarely gone an entire day without talking to him. Boo. I guess I will be keeping myself VERY busy this summer.

In other news, my stress levels went down 100000% because I had a test and a huge paper due on Friday, but the paper got postponed a few days so now I get to just focus on Chemistry... and I think I may finally be understanding what I'm doing :)

deployment

So I found out today that Joe's squadrom is probably going to be deployed in June for a month or so. Well, that sucks. I guess it wont be AS bad since it's during the summer and I will have plenty to keep my busy (school, full time job, lake) but it is definitely not what I wanted to hear. I knew he was going to be deployed to Bahrain sometime next year for 6 months, but I was hoping that that would be the only one. No such luck.

On a lighter note, I have finally come to terms with staying at A&M for another year. I really do love the school and the town and everything about it, theres just no Joe. But my cousin Connor is transferring down here from Arizona next year and we're gonna get an apartment together so I'm really excited about that. It'll be nice to have someone who's actually in to sports who can go to all the games with me and I definitely wont have to worry about looking for a work out partner because I'm sure he'll make sure I make it to the gym everyday. Also, since I've known him my whole life, I wont have any problem yelling at him if he eats all my food or leaves his nasty dirty dishes everywhere :) (my current roommates have a tendency to do that but I don't know them well enough to feel comfortable yelling at them, I'm too nice)

So between living with Connor and getting to see Joe once a month, I should be able to manage making it through one more year without him. Hopefully.

I really don't have much to say today because the past week or so has been very uneventful for me. But I will say that I am super excited because I finally got back on my ADD medicine so I can actually get back to making good grades again and being able to focus on studying for more than 5 minutes. I've pretty much been studying non-stop the past 3 days for my Psychology exam tomorrow and I actually kinda enjoyed it? I'm a nerd, I know, but I really like that class so its nice to actually be doing well in it for once (got a 70 on the first test) Hopefully my test goes as well as I think it will... I'll let you know next weeke, or whenever I find out my grade.

I've also finally started working out again. I used to go to the Rec atleast 5 times a week but I havent been in over a month because I've been so busy. Its amazing how much better of a mood I'm in when I'm actually being productive and not laying around feeling sorry for myself all the time :)

work

So since this is called people places and things and I've never really gotten past people... here's my first place

I work at Hollister which is a clothing store. I have recently discovered that I have the WORST JOB EVER! I work usually work 4 hours a day, 4 times a week which doesnt seem so bad at first, until you consider the fact that during those four hours I am confined in the same room the entire time and to every customer that walks in I have to say some sort of "tagline" which is usually along the lines of "Hey what's up, welcome to the pier" or "be sure to stop by our kiosks to sign up for promotional emails from Hollister!" Most of the time people just look at me like I'm crazy and keep walking. The worst part is i make minimum wage (7.25) So in a two week period I can work 30 hours and only make like $190 (after taxes)

Over spring break I went back and worked at my old job and home which is this really cool restaurant on the lake. I made $900 in 5 days. Now lets do the math... $190 in two weeks? or $900 in five days. Yeaaahhhh my job sucks. I quit. Like literally, I'm putting in my two weeks notice. I'm gonna find me a cool restaurant to work at :)

So I really don't have a whole lot to say today, but I have to post more blogs so I can get them done before the semester is over :) I've pretty much just been wallowing in self pitty all day today and yesterday. I've slept waaayyy too much and eaten probably more chocolate than I should have.
Joe works everyday from 4pm until 4am so I never really get to talk to him because he sleeps most of the day and by the time he's off work I've already been asleep for a while. Which is just ANOTHER reason I want to move there.
My parents told me last night that they would pay for me to go see him once a month next year. I tried to explain to them that he has a job and he can't just take off whenever he wants for me to come see him. Not to mention I'm in school and I work too. If we had the time to fly across the country and see each other that often we would be doing it already.
My mom wants me to go see a therapist or something because she thinks I need "help." I don't need help, I just need Joe! haha

another year

So for the past three months I have been planning to tranfer to a school in Virginia called Virginia Commonwealth University. My boyfriend lives there and we had come to the conclusion that an entire year away from eachother was just about all we could handle and that we needed to figure out some other situation so we could be closer. The school is an hour and a half away from where he lives so I would be able to see him every weekend (a huge change from the every-other-month visits we've been limited to this year.)

At first I was really scared to move so far away from all of my friends and family. I'm an extremely shy person so I was worried about being in a place so far away where I didn't know anyone. However the more I thought about it the more excited I got about going. A fresh start where no one knew me, and if things got bad I would have Joe there to make it better.

Well here's the kicker. After months of my parents giving me the impression that I was going to be headed off to Virginia in just a few short months, they suddenly decide that NOPE I'm not going.

Its kinda funny how you don't really realize just how badly you want something until someone tells you that you can't have it. I've been 1,500 miles away from Joe for over a year now and the thought of having to continue living with that situation is terrible. As dramatic and petty as it sounds, I honestly don't know how I will get through another year without him. The only thing that kept me happy this past semester was knowing that I only had to make it a few more months and then I'd be with him.... this year should be interesting. And by interesting I mean depressing.